A shout out to my longest relationship, ever

A three-decade long relationship (and still counting) is definitely my longest relationship ever. I have always wondered if I can maintain relationship let alone be in one.

All these years I’ve wondered if someone will choose me and see me for who I am. Apparently, someone has been choosing me everyday since 1986, and someone sees me for who I am good AND bad. Still, she chooses me.

My boss told me once, you’ll know that you found the one, when you’re in deep sh*t and the first person you think about and call will drop everything their doing just to help you. Well, if you know me well, I have been in car accidents many times and there is always that one person who I call and would always take me out of the deep sh*t i am in.

Sometimes I forget to say thank you for the little things because I am too busy living my life, forgetting that a simple validation is the best gift ever.  However, I just want you to know that my world revolves around you and it pains me seeing you hurt. I may not express much but my love for you goes beyond life, time and space.

Thank you for always choosing us, for always being there for us and for just loving us regardless of our shortcomings. You are the light that have always guided us whenever life gets tough. We grew up to be warriors because we were inspired by you.

A loud shoutout to my longest relationship, ever. A special shoutout to my mother! The woman who inspires me to be strong. The woman who inspires me to love and love passionately. I am half of you and I am dang proud of it.

Happy Mothers day, Mommy! I love you! Forever and ever and ever!

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It’s time to move on and let go

I have always wondered what it feels like to not see you. I would always ask myself if I can be brave enough to face each day without you there to greet me. Then I realized, its been a year since I last saw you and I have a feeling I won’t see anymore. It became more real to me that whatever it was that we have is done. I guess all that is left are memories, memories of all that was good and bad. It’s funny that I write this post in past tense, a part of me is longing for you. Longing for the feeling I always got when you’re around. The giggles and smiles I had just by talking and hanging out with you. You were a good reminder of my past. I just don’t want the past to dictate everything that is happening and will happen to me. I miss you, I still do. However, I know that at some point we have to let go and move on. Besides, if we were meant for each other, we could have done something about it. You could have done something about it. We were really good friends, I am just not sure if we were meant to be more than just – friends.

I wish you nothing but happiness. You deserve a life that is rich and full. You are a great man, i guess for someone else.

An open letter to my 13 year old self

I have been struggling for the past few days on what I should be writing on. According to 10 tips on making a successful blog, always maintain a schedule. A schedule when you’ll be posting your articles. So, I have been really struggling on what to write about. It ain’t easy especially if there are a lot of ideas running to your mind. And, throw in a hectic 9(PM!) to 6(AM!) work schedule in the mix, and you have the perfect combination for blog writing trouble. Anyway, I have finally decided that I’ll be writing about open letters to myself, at the different stages in my life. I guess, being 30 gives me a different perspective on life. So, let’s start with.

Being 13 is the beginning of a lot of changes, both physically and emotionally. There will be moments wherein being stuck is a common feeling and that pimples are actually a common thing now. There will be unexplainable emotions and feelings that are too complicated, blame it on your hormones. And yes, sometimes there are parts of you that will hurt. There might be a feeling of the struggle is real but believe me when I tell you, it’s not yet the end of the world.

Always listen to your parents, they will always know better. Don’t piss your mom off, she’s still your strongest ally. Dad may start to be a little stricter with the boys, but it’s just a “dad thing.” The boys are also starting to change now, they’re getting taller, their voices becoming deeper and starting to grow weird hair  and they’re starting to look a whole lot cuter, but they’re still boys.

Start to choose your friends wisely. High school can be a mean environment, but honey hold on, life will be better. Don’t let someone dictate your feelings, your self-worth and your independence. You are your own diva and you do you. Rely on your real friends, they’ll help you power through the challenges. Don’t let the hurtful words cut you deeply, it may shake your confidence but always be a bigger person.

Keep praying, and keep believing that the Lord is on your side. Life has just begun love, and the best years of your life has yet to come. Savour the moments of being 13, you’ll only be 13 once. It is the start of the life of  teenager.

Brace yourself, it has just begun.

What am I thankful for?

I am thankful for my Family.
Who I am and what I have become is because of my family. I am lucky to be in a family that makes you feel safe. Our relationship may not be perfect but I won’t have it any other way.

I am thankful for my friends.
Over time, we learn who are true friends are. I have learned through past connections that not all people are your friends. There will always be some people who don’t fit in your puzzle. I know who are the members of my  inner circle, know yours too.

I am thankful for all the blessings I’ve received.
We are all blessed, in one way or another. Do not let bad experiences make you feel otherwise.

I am thankful for life.
Every day is a gift, a gift of life. I am thankful that I wake up everyday.

I am thankful for all the good and bad things that happened in my life. The scars that I got helped me in becoming a better person. God has blessed me, more than I can ever imagined. He is/was/will be my rock.

Thank you, Big Guy!

 

Feeling Great @ 30

Every year, I would always wonder how getting a year older would feel like. I always get excited on how many IG posts, Facebook shoutouts and birthday comments I get for every birthday I celebrate. I always hope that I surpass the number greetings I got the year before.There is always that feeling of beating the year before, in any way, shape or form.

2016 is definitely a year to remember, especially for those who share the same birth year as myself. This year, we are ringing in our 30th year. I was always worried on how I can make my 30th birthday memorable. I thought of going on a staycation and enjoy the remaining moments of my late twenties. Being 30th felt like there is that dark cloud ahead, an inevitable dark cloud. (lol!)

When it was finally my birthday, it was nothing but normal. I guess, reporting to work made it more like any regular day. (haha!) Kidding aside, it felt like I was just 20. It is true when they say that age is just a number. It really is more of how you perceive life and how you play it. Age is part of life, no matter what we do. How we handle our birthdays and being a year older makes all the difference.

If you ask me two months ago how I am feeling being 30, i’ll tell you I am terrified. Now that I am 30, heck! it doesn’t change anything. I am still me. I guess, ask me next year when I turn 31.