An open letter to my 20 year old self

Dear Mia,

College just ended and I know that you are wondering what the hell you’ll do next. Don’t be afraid to make a choice, life doesn’t always revolve around your friends. At the end of the day, you only have yourself, and sometimes that is all you need. Life will not be easy, you’ll be working in a BPO company that will totally shock you – customers can be rude! However, you’ll meet people who are very nice and are enamoured by your youth. You’ll discover something about yourself that will help you in your future career. You’re dream of becoming a trainer will come true, and that memorable feedback you got from your V&A trainer will definitely change your life forever. Don’t worry, you’ll do wonders. You will bring joy to a lot people, tears to some but you’ll be memorable. Oh baby! You will!

Uncertainty will always bug you, trust your instincts. You’ll be more observant, in silence you’ll learn to listen, you’ll begin to undertand why its better to shut your mouth. Again, learn to trust your instincts, it will not fail you. (listen carefully)

People come and go, they are called acquaintances. True friends stay regardless of your stupidity and lack of proper judgment. You are blessed with good and trustworthy friends, keep them close. You’ll meet people who will judge you but your friends will always keep an open mind. You’ll be left with only a few real ones, treasure them. They will always have your back – keep that in mind. You’ll share a lot of life’s milestones with them, they’ll celebrate with you and they’ll celebrate you.

Love will still be elusive, dear. Be patient, it will come. He will come when the time is right. It won’t be easy, but learn to listen to the rumblings of your surroundings. He is nearby, babe.

There will be curve balls (as always!). There will be moments that you’ll find yourself crying yourself to sleep however, these moments will bring you closer to God. God sees and hears you, He is always around. He’ll never let you down. Keep praying, keep the faith.

Trust in the timing of your life. It may not make sense now, but believe you me when I tell you that you are at a very comfortable seat now. It may not be everything you hope it to be, but baby – it’s a whole lot better.

We were robbed!

We were robbed of the WBO World Welterweight Title in Brisbane. A shoutout to the referee, you were the 3rd person on that ring, you were supposed to impose the rules of boxing (fair and square) and you were supposed to be the voice of reason. Obviously, you were just a spectator nothing else.

To Sen. Manny Pacquiao, you may have lost the title but you represented the country well. You have shown class and professionalism amidst the controversial decision. You will always be the best pound-for-pound boxer of all time. If its any consolation, a lot people acknowledge that you were robbed of the title. However, it is also a wake up call that maybe, its time to retire and concentrate on other things. (just a proposition!)

Jeff Horn, talk to us once you have 57 wins. (mic drop)

Dreams do come true

Last Thursday was the best day of my life by far! My long-time idol Pop Queen, Britney Spears performed live in Manila. IMG_3463

It was the best night of my life, she didn’t disappoint and it was more than I have ever imagined. I have been waiting for this moment for 18 years and seeing her perform was definitely a dream come true. I can’t believe that I finally saw her perform. I guess, this is the feeling you get for finally getting your long time wish to come true.

I LOVE YOU BRITNEY, forever! 🙂

Chapter Two

Sat next to you and i thought butterflies in my tum-tum will start to flutter, however none of them started to move. I wasn’t sure what I was feeling or if I was feeling anything at all. The funny thing was neither of us moved, we were just there minding our own business and nothing was special – nothing. I wasn’t sad though, I was just there calm, peaceful and just being myself which is good, yes good! Good because finally I didn’t feel awkward about someone I actually like. I move, you move, we move then you left, I didn’t even notice. (lol!) All I want is for you to know that even if I don’t say anything and I don’t do anything – you mean the hell a lot to me. You may not see me as someone special, but the little things you do and say make my day, for that – thank you.

Helpless

God puts people in your life for a reason, and removes them from your life for a better reason. – (found in pinterest)

I saw this post and it struck a cord. It was a realization that I believe is long overdue. It’s funny how we get lost in all the madness and our reason lost in all the euphoria. I was lost for some time, I was blinded with what I thought was forever. Now, I am finally awake, not sure if I am back. I think I am still in transition, letting go of what could have been and to face what should be.

I am in transition.
I am not yet back.
I just want to be whole again.

Another leaf has fallen from the tree

Another leaf has fallen from the tree. 😦 We will miss another member of our extended family. It is never easy losing someone who you hold so dear. My Ate Cindy was diagnosed with stage 4 Breast Cancer 18 months ago, she was a fighter and she fought cancer well. It’s sad talking about her in the past tense, however, I know she’s better off in heaven – No more pain, no more suffering.

I will miss you ate. I will miss how you would call me “Mianess”. I will visit you later.